This is the last time I'll be haunt by my past.
Secondary School life had passed 2years, I'm in Poly for the seond yrs yet I can't help thinking of the past. What should I do? I think I'll type all my memories here and leave it, I'm going to lock/seal up all these memories.
I joined deyi@2001, I went in that school alone. None of my primary school mates were there. I was in 107, I knew none of them. The first few weeks were pretty hard to pass but the rest was enjoyable. I mixed and hanged up with a group of friends, (Wang Peng, Alvin, Wei chuan, Qing Hong, Joshua, Chee wei, Pius.) We were good friends and we did everything together till end of secondary 4, although all of us in different class. These were the friends from 107 & 207. ( Now we are no longer friends(perhaps)I did something v terrible to them.)
Then I went on to 309 in secondary 3, I went to that class with 2 other guys (joshua & vincent) And as for the rest of the class, I knew no one. But we quickly bond together and all the guys were together. Secondary 3 & 4 life pace was pretty fast, everyone was rushing for the Os. However, there was 1 lesson which 3 guys told rubbish. The chinese lesson, 3 of us (Me, Joshua, Jin wen) will chat through the lesson. Os arrived and result was released, both of them did better than me and went ahead with their own plans while I have to replan everything.
3months in JC, I went to MJC while all my friends went to NYJC, SRJC,AJC...etc. None of my close friends went to MJC. So I was alone again. Every morning in MJC was a torture and a nightmare. I knew no one in school and no matter where I stand, I felt awkward and out of place, It was terrible. Even when I got a class 05S211, it was still the same. Although I got friends (Ronald, Bing Long , Norris) and we did lots of stuffs and got into troubles together. One of them was: We asked everyone in the class to skip math lesson, and almost all the guys skipped the lesson and we got caught. The next day, we were asked to apologize to the teacher and seek for forgiveness.
Now the two of them are still in MJ but I'm no longer in MJC. I spent a fun and interesting 3 months there and Ronald, Bing long and Norris, they were great friends.
Jun Ren, one of best friend, who lived near me. It has been awhile since we last chat. We used to chat lots of stuffs as well but now, perhaps you are busy with your stuffs. Or Maybe I did a terrible thing to you and you can't forgive me.
There was this girl who I really liked, but guess its time to let go and forget about it. I'm always watching her back, don't know when did I started staring at her back. I'll always take the long route to go home just to stop by her block. I still give gifts to her but no reply at all, haiz. Standing aimlessly at the block and looking at it, just praying to be able to see her. I heard that she doesn't like people who smoke, fight and scolding vulgarity.
Joshua, you told me this before,You hoped that we can remind like this even after we graduated from Deyi. I'm sorry but I destroyed this hope of yours. I can't turn back anymore or rather I don't want to turn back anymore. Perhaps everything went wrong from the time the Os results was released. I've never imagine or dream of myself going into a Poly but right now I'm in a Poly. Even though 1years had passed in Poly but I still can't help thinking that why am I in a Poly.
Byebye.....all these memories, They were happy moments at that time but now it had become sad memories for me. I got to throw them away or else I will have to carry on my life with sadness every night. And I'll have to wake up every morning, blaming myself for all the wrong things I have done.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
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