Trapped

I'm trapped! When I thought I was free from everything...all of a sudden i noticed that I'm actually still trapped within it. It haunts me everyday 24/7.....I cannot do anything about it. "Memories! "

I'm lost.
I'm tired. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know whether I'm doing/going the right thing/way. I'm trying so hard but I'm really tired....I just feel that I'm not myself anymore. I wonder whether I'm fit for studying or not. I try so hard to fulfill all promises that I made. I try not to PS anyone. I try to cover up my mistakes. I try and try and try.....But sometimes, I'm just too tired! I often look at the mirror and ask, " Is this really me?" I look at my past photos and see that smile and I asked, " Can I really smile like this again?"

I look around myself and I see nothing left.....everyone seems to be living in a different world. Everyone has friends but I don't think I have any left....I hate and I'm afraid of being alone.